Shunned At A Funeral - Because Someone Died

Yeah.
Yeah
I woke up where the clocks don't care
Same street life, same thin air
Kept my heart in a rented room
Paid in hours, paid in fume said
I was fine, said
I was free
But everything kept asking me why
The days just circle back like wheels on iron
Steel on track
Track track
I learned the weight of empty wind
Smiles with nowhere left to live
I chased the shine
I knew the cost
Still felt cheaper than the loss
Every mirror told the truth
But never told me what to do
Just kept time with a tight grin
Said this is it
Just settle in
Something without a sound
Something cracked the ground
I found and music] like a whisper
Cutting through everything
I thought
I knew
Born again into the light
Not an exit set up right
Every breath relearned its name
Same world but not the same
I didn't rise because
I tried
Didn't climb my way outside
This is how the darkest night
I ROSE BECAUSE someone died
I dressed my doubt in clever
And singing] words
Made my cage look self assured
Called the ache being alive
Called survival doing fine
But every night the quiet state
Asked what all that motion made
If this was all the ground allowed why?
My soul kept digging down screaming down
Then the dark lost its disguise
When the truth met both my eyes
Not with thunder, not with fear
Just a voice that stayed too near
Born again into the day
I shall pull away from the lie that
I was hold from the soul
Collapse of soul
No disguise, no alibi
No new mask, no better lie
This is the reason
I'm alive
I because someone died because
I rose because someone died
No more clocks to hold my breath
No more calm that smells like death what
I lost, I let it leave
For what
I didn't dare believe believe
Again now
I see
Tomorrow is haunting me
Not just breaking it
Everything deep inside heat heat heat heat
But the false is no longer mine mine